My favorite mistake was getting my tattoos. My tattoo is gang affiliated but there’s a story behind it I don’t want to forget. Everywhere I go people ask me why I keep my tattoos if they’re gang related and I am not in a gang anymore. My tattoo isn’t for the gang- anymore. The reason I keep them is because the day I got them my three best friends pasted away. That day I saw the life of my three loved ones leave their eyes.
It was two weeks after my birthday and 6 of my other friends and me were walking around. Chico, Paco, Juan, and me decided to separate and go bust some missions. When we came back I finally earned my tattoo. I was so proud to finally be able to represent my hood. We were on our way back to meet up with the rest and the when it happened. We saw our rivals. They pulled out guns and started shooting. My friend Juan pushed me behind a tree and then my friends pulled out their guns and shot back. The three friends we left caught up. Everything happened so fast that the time they showed up it was too late. I was sitting by all three bodies, bleeding. Juan was still alive telling me don’t cry. He was my best friend and boyfriend and now he was gone. I look around and I see my friends crying too. We lost three soldiers, three friends, and three loved ones. I gained a memory I’ll never forget.
My Tattoos now stand for them. I have three dots, 1 for each of them. In some way I feel connected to them when I look at my tattoo. I think constantly about getting them removed but it’s the only permanent thing I got along with the emotional scar and the nightmares every time I go to sleep. I got a bandana, a shirt, and I rosary that belonged to each of them. Anyone can take them away but my tattoos stay as long as I stay. And If I don’t quit for good with gangs ill die the same way.
4 comments:
I'm sorry to hear that Jocelyn it must suck. I know how you fell cause one of my childhood friends died in a car accident and I was so shocked. But hopefully you've gotten better.
I have a stupid tattoo of my real mom that I use to hate, but now I realize that, that will be a memory that at the time, was a good memory. I think that's how everything is. I want to keep every memory I have, good or bad.
Symbolic things like that are awesome. I'm sorry for your loss. But keeping a memory of them keeps them alive in a way.
I'm very sorry to about your loss and I know how hard it is to lose someone over something so stupid. I've had good friends of mine die just because they were who they were. It's not fair for these things to happen, but they do, it's only a matter of what do do so we are never put in that kind of situation again.
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