Have you ever wondered if the grass was greener somewhere else? That your life could be perfect because you would be going to a place where no one knows you? Yeah, me too.
I was the kind of girl that fought with her parents, drank on the weekends, and really didn’t care about a thing. I had never met my real mom, and I was almost sixteen. I thought if I left home and went to meet her, that my life would be so much better. I guess some of us have to learn the hard way.
So, I started my journey to Missouri to meet my dream mom. She was absolutely nothing that I expected. Everything was great at first. We went to the creek, went shopping, and tanning. Ya know, just normal daughter and mom kind of stuff. I loved my little sister and my little brothers. We clicked from the start. But of course, no real story has a happy ending.
We started fighting about stupid stuff. And I started ditching school and smoking pot. I hid it from her, not like she would really care, but I still did. She found out I was ditching school and she freaked out. I blamed it on her coming home at three in the morning and always having the kids. Yet, I didn’t really care, I would just throw parties when she was gone.
We got over that and started drinking and smoking pot together. Perfect life right? Yeah, not really, she started partying with my friends too, awkward. I hated it, they were my friends not hers. She tried acting like the teen-ager and I had to be the mom, to myself and to my brothers and sister.
One thing led to another, and she started tweaking, and I was becoming an alcoholic. The kids, they were starting to become neglected, by my mom and me. It’s starting to sound like the perfect life right? Accept the lying and the drugs.
Anyways, it turned out life was not greener on the other side. I ended up getting kicked out and driving from Missouri to Utah. I learned that you can’t run from your problems no matter how hard you try. People aren’t always what you expect and nothing will be perfect just because you leave some place and go to another.
My life is still not perfect, but I am trying to make the best of it. I now try not to run from things and I try to learn from my mistakes. I tried so hard not to be like my real mom, once I found out who she really was, but it turns out I ended up just like her. Maybe even worse.
8 comments:
I think this is a great story. I think that it is good that you are trying to make the best out of your life,cause to be honest with that is all we can do. We make mistakes it is human but I think why we make mistakes is to learn from it. I like your story.
People always say its greener on the other side but that's isn't true. My mom and brother said its greener where you water it. So it greener where u make it greener. Life Is wat you make it.
Dezi I just freaking love you and I'm always telling you about me and things I've done and your always there for me so I'm here for you and I can relate to your story because I thought that the grass would be greener on the other side but it wasn't and I ran from my problems and it didn't help. I just love you and thanks for being there for me and I'm here for you. By the way great story.
I think you are am amazing person! And your story really got to me! When I was younger I never wanted to be around my real parents because i didnt want to end up like them! I still have my challenges, but im trying my hardest to be the best i can be!
I like how you are trying to change your life around and make it better. And your right the grass isnt allways greener on the other side. But your making the best of it,and it think that is amazing
i think that it is awsome that you are trying to change your life around.And your right the grass isnt always greener on the other side. but i think its great how you are making the best of it.
A smart man makes a mistake,learns from it,and never makes that mistake again.but a wise man finds a smarter man and learns from his mistakes all together.
I know how you feel dezi I never new my real dad so I looked him up and turns out he resentlly got arrested. I tried looking up my mom but didn't get eny thing. all I know about her is she tried to abandon me on the side of the road in my stroller when I wasn't even a year old. How messed is that.
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